Saturday, March 27, 2004

what a mess of a world we live in!

it's now time for lishun to turn back into normal, sane, mode and start writing reflective journal entries. in other words, welcome back to the world of "rant and rave"! haha.

well, my exams are over. don't ask about them. i only have another 15 weeks till my next exam, and most of those 15 weeks will not be spent studying anyway. term 2 is gonna be hell.

but that's not what i really wanted to write about. lately things have been going on that have made the world a little less rosy. not like it's been rosy anyway, but heck. the point is, it just dawned upon me just how screwed up everything is.

while i think peace is really boring - we need conflicts or else we'd have nothing to do - i also think it's totally ridiculous at what lengths humans go to just to stir up trouble. like israel killing the hamas leader. well, sure, the guy killed hundreds of israelis by recruiting suicide bombers, but hasn't it occured to them that by killing him would result in even MORE deaths? already there is talk of world war III.

sigh. and i thought my generation would be the only one born in the 20th century that would live our lives without seeing a full-scale world war.

i personally condemn the way the hamas guy was killed. no doubt there may be justifications on why he deserved to die, but hey, by an air strike? on his way out of a surau? that is just plain cowardice, and designed to spark an outrage. which will cause more innocent israelis and palestinians to die. and THEY don't deserve that.

the whole taiwan thing is freaking me out too. so close to the region i live in. can you imagine if war breaks out there too? my dear country, which is majority muslim, by the way, would not only be caught between the "islam vs the rest of the world" issue, but also struggle to maintain peace in this region. aargh.

sorry. i just get rather worked up by what i read in the newspapers nowadays. it seems so senseless to me. the leaders involved in these conflicts seem to lack the one thing the rest of the world seems to have: common sense.

what a mess of a world we live in!

add those conflicts to the more serious problems of the excess of performance art venues in singapore, the lack of rain in malaysia, the unfair change of university admissions, and the fact that i am killing myself trying to get into australia and you have a whole big pile of, well, mess.

i can't understand it. the longer i live in this world, the more confused i become. why are things so complicated when the solutions are glaringly simple? why is it when people who have money to study can't get into universities while those who do get in have no money?

and why do human beings evolve to have brilliant brains and complex languages, when all these changes lead to our self-destruction? it's against the theory of evolution!

looks like we have not only outdone the rest of the animal kingdom, but have also outdone ourselves. the survival of the fittest no longer applies in this world. now it's more of the survival of the less stupid.

what a mess!

lishun at 12:07 PM

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Thursday, March 18, 2004

10 things

*note to reader: lishun is too stressed to be reflective at the moment. kindly check back for more intelligent blog entries in about 7 days. for now, please forgive her for being an uncreative soul. thank you.

[10 of your favorite songs at this moment]
1) where or when - harry connick, jr.
2) fly me to the moon - frank sinatra
3) all the love in the world - the corrs
4) you and i both - jason mraz
5) kissing a fool - george michael
6) bright lights - matchbox twenty
7) summer nights - john travolta & olivia newton-john
8) crazy in love - beyonce
9) are you gonna be my girl? - jet
10) white flag - dido

[09 things you're looking forward to]
1) going home
2) seeing my gang back home
3) end of block test one
4) seeing my family
5) cuddling my dog again
6) my bed tonight
7) man utd winning the FA cup
8) seeing...(dot dot dot)
9) finishing my revision

[08 things you enjoy doing most]
1) listening to music
2) reading something unrelated to college
3) talking crap with my friends
4) chatting online
5) sleeping
6) just basically doing nothing
7) watching csi
8) writing poetry that only i read

[07 favourite memories]
1) slacking in the "bilik wawasan" in form 4
2) listening to my mother sing chinese songs
3) prom. some parts of it anyway.
4) sleepovers at june's place.
5) asean orientation 2004
6) all those post-exam shopping trips
7) the valley. i miss the valley.

[06 things you touch everyday]
1) my bed
2) handphone
3) wallet
4) fork and spoon
5) my hair
6) my sandals

[05 things you do everyday]
1) brush teeth
2) whine about block test one
3) study (yeah right!)
4) think about how i shall utilise the little time i have at home
5) eat

[04 things you are good at]
1) writing nonsense
2) talking nonsense
3) knowing strategic places to sit
4) whining

[03 movies you'd watch over and over again]
1) finding nemo
2) the first "the matrix"
3) my fair lady

[02 artists or bands you've seen live]
1) urban exchange
2) blue

[01 person you'd spend your life with]
1) the one i'll marry? duh!

lishun at 3:28 PM

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Monday, March 15, 2004

impending doom

i don't mean to sound so fatalistic, but i feel this impending doom. all signs lead to nothing good. call me superstitious, but every time manchester united lose a match, something terribly wrong happens.

my close friends would know this about me. when man utd crashed out of the champions league two years ago, i watched them lose. and that day, after i loaded the clothes into the washing machine, it acted up and all the clothes got BOILED. needless to say, we had to get a new machine. but it proves that bad luck comes to me when man utd lose. and they've been losing a lot lately, haven't they?

f**king derby. excuse me for swearing. i am not myself today.

also, all the signs have pointed to me not doing well for my first block test. what signs, you may ask? they're pretty discreet, but they're along the lines of me not studying. yep, have been slacking. i've wasted 3 days of my so-called holiday already. and lookee...here i am, writing an entry for this blog when i should be doing physics!

well, things aren't all bad. i don't consider destressing as wasting time. so saturday's youth group talent show wasn't slacking. it was fun, and i'm now all powered to do some serious revising. i have to say that i'm so jealous. the filipinas have all the talent. they can sing, they can dance...they can do everything! hmm...is it too late to change my nationality and identity? hehe.

can't wait to go home. just one week and 3 days to go.

sigh. not really in the mood for much reflective thinking. hope you guys don't mind me. and wish me luck for the exams i didn't study for!

take care...

music that runs tingles down my spine: OST-when harry met sally, feat harry connick jr (sorry, no audios of meg ryan's now-famous fake orgasm); the reprise years - frank sinatra (ol' blue eyes at his best).

lishun at 9:41 AM

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Tuesday, March 02, 2004

5 minutes

i have 5 minutes for this entry before it's time for gp. urgh.

things on my mind: tutorials. tutorials. tutorials. remember to take breakfast, lunch and dinner. tutorials. phys exam later. double period pe tomorrow. home visit. bio and gp test on thursday. math test on friday. aarrrrrrrggggghhhh!

recent woes: no money. no music (headset spoilt). must iron clothes. no money. $100 deposit to be paid by sat. no money.

miscellaneous: sick of sajc. so glad jc1s not around...college much quieter. wanna go to temasek. miss home so much. my room is so messy. should i get more plants? must go buy fish to make life less miserable. i want a pet.

here's something for the number fetish...i have...

22 photographs stuck on my walls and desk; 12 soft toys: 5 dogs, 4 bears, 1 kangaroo, 1 tarepanda, 1 cookie monster; 9 revision books; 7 files; 6 incomplete tutorials, 5 CDs: 2 hilary duff, 1 disney, 1 smash hits, 1 mltr (all stuff i won); 4 bags; 3 textbooks; 2 plants; 1 fake blue rose; and no self-esteem.

there goes the bell. sigh.

lishun at 12:46 PM

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