Monday, August 13, 2007

hogging my drama

sometimes i wonder what it is i'm being protected from, what it is that i'm missing. why has He made it so that i live such a sheltered life, shielded from the elements, enclosed in a sarcophagus while my heart is still beating? is it really something i cannot handle? will i be crippled by the experience?

why should people like him, her, them have the privilege (or misfortune, whichever way you look at it) of going through it when i don't? why are they hogging my drama?

i used to wish it upon myself to experience it too. maybe it'll allow me to relate to people better or write more heartfelt prose and poetry. an artist is not an artist if she has not suffered.

but then i realised how stupid it would be to actually want to make horrible mistakes or go through heartbreak. what idiot would ever wish hardship upon herself? (this idiot, that's who)

in the wise words of chris daughtry, "be careful what you wish for because you just might get it all...and some that you don't want". there is truth to those words, eventhough they come from a cliched radio-friendly pseudo-rock song.

i'm much more careful now about what i wish for.

lishun at 10:03 PM