Tuesday, October 21, 2003

blessed

thank you for some of your responses to my previous entry. i'm feeling much better now, and think that i may have been overreacting while i was typing that last entry. things have become straightened out, and i guess we were all just a little touchy last week after getting our results.

last night i read a book by david peltzer, "a child called 'it'". the story is not a work of fiction, instead it tells of the third worst case of child abuse in californian history.

i first heard about this book during an oprah winfrey show, but took it as "just another one of those books" and never made an effort to look for a copy.

as i read about how pelzter was tortured, starved, beaten by his own mother, i could hardly contain my tears. each new "game" his mother made him play gave me a sick feeling in my stomach, especially when he ate his own vomit after his mother induced it out of him simply because he hadn't eaten in days.

i was amazed by his strength, his spirit. he never gave up, not completely anyway. when his body couldn't take the torture, he drew strength from within. but it tore me apart to read about his helplessness. his desperation caused him to question God. it even caused me to question God. what had this little boy done to deserve such pain?

when i finished the book, there was a knot in my stomach and i felt so blessed to have a loving family. so blessed to have friends who do care. so blessed to have such a good life that i can complain about trivial matters like backstabbers and gossip.

whatever my friend holds against me matters no longer. what matters now is that i am thankful for all that God has given me. i am also thankful that david peltzer did not grow up to be an abusive man, but instead uses his life to help those who are traumatised because they had a history of abuse.

it feels good to be blessed.

lishun at 6:53 PM

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