Saturday, October 06, 2007

in desperation

"she is running
a hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
she sets out on another misadventure just to find
she's another two years older and she's three more steps behind"
- from "does anybody hear her?" by casting crowns

i wanted to scream and cry and jump and take her by the shoulders and shake them hard and put my arms around her and hug her and pray with her and tell her to stop the self-destruction and love herself and know that God loves her and she is worth more than the price she puts on herself and she deserves better and grab her and protect her and cast the demons away from her and keep her safe and...and...

but i am helpless. i can't do it. but it hurts me so so much to see a friend go down the wrong path, the path that leads nowhere but to death. i can't do anything, nothing at all. i have done all i possibly can.

Lord, have mercy on this sister of mine. she is lost, more lost than she will ever know. the denial, justification from the world, the hold the devil has on is too great for me, but nothing is too great for You. Lord, i plead on her behalf. save her! save her! my tears cannot help her. Lord, save her!

lishun at 2:07 PM